I hate these kinds of nights. I feel bad for no reason. Like something horrible happened when it didn't. Normally, I'd say that maybe my Spidey-senses were tingling, but they haven't really tingled in years.
I did have a bad dream last night though. Maybe the feelings from that are finally catching up to me. Maybe I should talk to someone about it. But it's been the same thing forever. Most people are tired of hearing about it. I know I am. I wish I could forget it. I wish I could go back and make different decisions. Then maybe I wouldn't be so haunted.
It really scares me to think that I'll dream like this for the rest of my life. That even if I'm 50 and happy as ever with a really nice husband and a couple of kids, that every so often, I'll dream like I dream now.
I know I'm being a bit vague and possibly even cryptic, but I don't really want to talk about it. I'll just cry if I do. I think I need to get into some therapy ASAP. Maybe a support group or something. It can only help right??
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