moving

Moving is the most difficult thing I've done since having to put my dog to sleep a year ago.  My mania is worse than ever, as is the depression.  I'm swinging back and forth like a really rapid pendulum.  It is NO fun and I'm sure it's killing my family. 

There's so much stuff to do.  Not just the packing of the boxes, but the packing of the car and taking out the trash.  It all sucks so hard.  And how do I deal with it??

NOT WELL!!!

I have been screaming at everybody because when I get manic I get irritable as shit.  Then, I get done screaming and start crying because that's how fast my moods are swinging right now.  It's a horrible feeling.  I'm hoping it's also a temporary feeling and that once we're on the road I'll be okay. 

Of course, once we're out there I have to worry about driving without getting lost.  But hopefully these directions I got are good ones. 

Hoping that once we settle down in Texas I will feel much better.  I've already found a support group for people with bipolar disorder, so that should help.  Wish me luck!!